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I PERSONALLY THINK IT HAS MORE FUNCTION THERE AND EASIER TO UPLOAD SONGS AND PHOTOS, THOUGH WORDPRESS IS MORE USER FRIENDLY.

goodbye.

Dark Night Movie @ Century Square

photoes all taken with joanna super cool and i-think-very-expensive camera

little annabelle…. she is sooooo cute

joanna was trying to get her to jump, i was trying to get her show off her ballet

she is so adorable can?! especially when she tried “cooking” for me with all her masak masak.. i realise i like children alot.. hahaha.

oh my teammate was so sweet. she blessed me with a new pair of black pumps from Charles and Keith!!! i have been desiring for a pair of black pumps… all my pumps are almost damaged. but i was always held back from buying because i have no extra $ to spend on one.. then today she just saw me in the lift lobby and told me she have a pair of new shoes to give to me..

and

i am going for Batam Emerge this friday to sunday!!

3moreweekstogo!!

some very random thoughts.

what makes a person your friend and draw you to want to be that person’s friend is the person’s character. but sometimes once this changes, the friendship changes as well.

when the person loses that character, do we lose a friend at the same time?

help, i need You.

i have many many pictures to post.

will do so when i find the time.

just a random thought..

as people grow older, do we become less vulnerable and less truthful?

i know You are never too late or too early.

You will always be just on time.

His grace is sufficient for you

be happy

the latter rain will be better, more glorious than the former

do not despise the days of moulding, discipline and correction

believe in people, believe in yourself

I love because He first love me

love never never fail

be a armor bearer

be strong.

half a year has gone by. these was what that got me through the first half of the year.

of course not forgetting the many many people He placed in the way.

i think im very blessed

with good friends like jiayi malang angeline huiling serene kw…

with very supportive cgm like marg cal kk bren mell jiemin…

with a good cgleader like wenhui…

with very comfortable cousins like angel amanda sharon…

with pretty nice family and sweet sisters like desiree and daph…

with cool SOT friends foo kai kailing tangy lester gz jeremy…

with good classmates like yanning priya yumi qianning shing…

and of course a God who loves me alot alot alot.

being thankful makes one alot happier!

i have many many photoes to upload. *but not today*

serene treated me to 10 promises i make to my dog. i would say its worth the price, much much more worth it than Prom Night… it reminded me that 10 years passed very very quickly. 10 years ago i was sitting for my PSLE and i can still remember it very very clearly! i have already gone through sec sch, jc, poly and now im embarking on uni life!

it reminded me of natalie lye.

not many people in my circle of friends now know her. she was my first friend and best friend in secondary school and we stuck to each other like chopsticks. we were so so different but we took and rub on each other’s personality. much of my snobbishness in secondary school can be attributed to her but much of my proper english also came from her. she didnt like my circle of friends, neither did i like hers.

we sat in front and behind each other but we quarrelled and made up every other day. we laughed at jokes only we understand. we were in each other’s innermost circle. we protected each other. we competed with each other. we laughed at each other’s stupidity. without fail, we will call each other everyday. we complained about our parents our sisters to each other. we wrote countless of long letters to each other. she was one of the first friend my parents actually liked. we think that God sent us to each other.

we made many promises to each other that never did come to pass. we promise to go to australia together, promise to plan each other’s wedding, promise to write a book together, promise to be each other’s best friend forever, promise our friendship with each other will last for eternity..

but somehow along the way we drifted far apart. today she is faraway in australia and we are barely in contact. but till now, i still remember her home address and telephone no. by heart.

and i do miss her quite abit.

ok, dont laugh. i look like a klutz there.. that was almost 10 long years ago.

and yah, she is natalie lye shan hui.

4 more weeks left! as much as it is very tiring and stretching now, but i know i will miss everything when it ends.

seriously, i have no idea how the month of august is going to be.

final lap for SOT

3 more book reviews to go, BR to complete, exams to take

SIM swinging into full force and i have yet to fully settle in

many many tests, 3 individual topic papers, 2 group projects

close to $800 i need to come up with by the end of august

school fees, travel expenses, bills, daily expenses…………

i have no idea how august is going to come to pass.

but i know it will, because with Him, it will be possible.

jiayi’s testimony really came at the right time. when she called to scream her joy and excitement into my ears, i teared. He is so real can?

throughout the entire conversation with jy, my mind was flooded with how He is not a respector of person. if He can do it for her, He can do it anyone. anyone who has the faith and the willingness to obey.

its time i stretch my faith again. and see for myself what He can do.

OPM on friday was so hard-to-describe. physically i was so tired and in pain, i wanted so much to go home but yet in my spirit i wanted something more from the OPM. and towards the end He came, so real so real. prayer is really about our tears meeting His. so many things, i find it so hard to put it across to anyone; but in His presence there is just this understanding and assurance. that many things people may not understand; sometimes we do not even understand it ourselves but He does and He sees, our intentions, our motives, our heart. and the assurance that He will never bring us to the valley to leave us there; it is always to bring us through it and to a higher mountain.

He loves us too much to leave us there, unless we insist on it…

He is much more faithful than we credit Him to be.

and He is real-er than we think He is.

i need to learn to trust, lean, and find rest in Him. alone. period.

MERCIES THAT RISE WITH THE NEW MORN 
SET ME APART AS A NEW BORN 
EACH MOMENT I LIVE
BY FAITH I BELIEVE 
WITH YOU I’M NEVER ALONE 

DARKNESS MAY COME, TRIALS SEEM SO LONG 
YOU ARE THE LIGHT I DEPEND ON 
THROUGH VALLEYS AND STORMS
YOUR WORD KEEPS ME STRONG 
MY SHELTER, REFUGE AND SONG
I TRUST IN YOU  

EVERYDAY I LIVE  I KNOW YOU ARE MY GOD  
I LIFT MY FACE AND LOOK TO YOU MY LORD 
EVEN WHEN THE MOUNTAINS TREMBLE  
AND A THOUSAND FALL  
I WILL STAND WITH YOU  
MY JESUS  
TAKE MY ALL

我从来不曾 怀疑过
到底你有多么爱我
我生命里的每一分钟
都有你看顾着我

有的时候黑暗临到
有的时候巨浪狂风
我心依然满有平安
因为有你看顾我
我的主 

不管前面道路有多困苦 耶稣你永远是我的帮助 
只要有你在我生命中 
永远看顾 
我必能一路永跟随 
我的主

when i failed JC, my leader told me

WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH, THE TOUGH GETS GOING.

what that is not broken, will be enforced!

this week is a super super tight on budget week for me and after tonight’s dinner and topping up of ex link card. i am SUPER BROKE now. in fact penniless. and i have my school fees to pay, insurance to pay, bills to pay, mouth (mine) to feed, books to photocopy (many many books) etc… and i was thinking the value in my ezlink card is running out way too fast and it is the main reason why my allowance deplete so fast! i really have to have it last longer.. no $ how to top up ezlink card? no top up how to travel?

and then i received a letter in my letter box! no, it was not cash inside. my neighbour( whom i just found out goes to SOT as well) dropped me a letter offering to drive me to school!!!!!!!! because one of her team mates who takes her car to school is away for a week… she was looking for me to drive me to school!!

do u have any idea how much $ and time i can save!!

alot…… i only need to leave the house at 720am!

He is so good can?! even before i ask, He already know the desire in my heart. and dont tell me it is coincidence, because it is not. coincidence do not happen ALL the time, and just at when i need it most!

and this week God has been so good to the cellgroup!

i took a brief look at my stack of notes for HRM. and the project guideline for the individual topic paper.. wow it frightens me a little. the term used sound so different from that in poly.. im not being kan chiong, but i really need to get down to studying hard in SIM.. my dad pays alot for me to study there.

in the next 1 1/2 months (or rather, 1month) i have alot alot to conquer.

God, let it all end well with an enlarged, irreversible capacity!

dont be lost and distracted and confused anymore!

a team mate whose husband has been in coma for close to 2 weeks. whats worse is, he was beaten up in the middle of the night for a negotiation that went wrong. he was just trying to claim back a sum of money he had lend to a friend. yeah, the person who beat him up so badly was his friend. his family members are told that even if he does wake up, he would either be paralysed or a vegetable.

but i found it so encouraging that even in the midst of all these, she still attend lessons faithfully whenever she can with no sign of emo-ness. yes, a very tired and weary face; but with a heart full of hope in Him. sometimes i think she is even more positive than some of us who prayed for her and her husband.

she really live out a life of total and absolute trust and confidence in Him.

today huiling told me about something that happened to a couple that she knew, who lost their 18 days old daughter due to an unsuccessful operation. even though i do not know the parents personally, but i have seen them around; i felt a sense of grief and loss for them. then i was just thinking, if i a total stranger could feel the pain, whatsmore the parents and loved one…

the pain of a mother.. gone through so much hardship in the nine months to bring forth a new life. finally became a proud parent of this precious gift. and in the twinkling of an eye, unexpectedly, in no less than 20 days the baby is gone.

for good. the pain must have been immense.

it is true when the bible say “the thief has come to steal, kill and to destroy…”

but in Him we can find our hope and our source of strength. He who will restore back all that the locusts have eaten up…

ok, that aside. happy photoes now!

i realised that for the past many weeks, all the photoes i have taken portray me having very small eyes. either i grew fatter or my eyes shrunk or i need more sleep.

i totally detest it when my sister comes back in a foul and stinking mood. -_-

but well, love doesnt fail.

so i will RENNNNNN!

PHOTO SHOOT ON SUNDAY!

maternal cousins without rayden.

before the photo shoot..

my cousins from the maternal and paternal side all have one thing in common – boys or girls, men or women, they ALL love taking photoes!

angeline malang! see,yourphoto’shere.

BALANCING SOT, SCHOOL, TUITIONS & PROJECTS ALL AT THE SAME TIME IS NOT EASY!!!

NOT EASY!  there are so many readings to be done for SOT – struggling to catch up! i have to decide what i want to sacrifice, and all are equally important and i cant afford to sacrifice either.. so how?

go by the leading of the Holy Spirit lor….. its my ONLY solution.

but its only 1 1/2 more months left before graduation. =(

i have a very very very big craving for ice cream and bbq!

soon soon soon…

read something on denise’s blog that really encouraged and spoke to me.

“Brokenness comes from going through tough times.
The more you go through it, the more grace and understanding you will give to people.
but if you have no brokenness, and you start to judge a person..
that judgement on you will be 3 to 4 times more.”

malang angeline hope this also shed some light for u!

i have already planned my graduation trip in 2 years time. i want to go shanghai-shan dong-dalian. my team mates say i only have to pay for the going air ticket and everything else will be taken care of. from my meals to lodging to transisting tickets to return tickets! hahahahaha! God let it come to pass!!!

for now i cannot afford that, so a one day getaway to sentosa will be good. haha. i realised that sentosa has changed quite abit and i am so not-up-to-date, i have not been to the new sentosa.

had durians last night. and i realised i missed durians so much!!!! and yesterday’s paper did a feature on the different types of durians. i had no idea quality durians cost so much! i ate durians like nobodys business when i was young; so i grew up thinking it was a cheap fruit. anyway the durian seller has always been shouting “3 for $10!!” but i found out last night thats for not so good quality durians..

i want sentosa, durians and good time of fellowship.

i read a post i wrote on the 25th april.. i never remembered myself writing that. but yah i did, and reading it stung my eyes abit..

forgetting the past, embrace the future.

yeah its time to do that.

He has eyes, He sees our needs. He has ears, He hears our prayers. He has a heart, He feels our pain and joy.

He assures and encourages me Himself, He gave me very good friends.

then He uses me to minister His love.

its time to step out of my comfort zone, i think i have rested enough.

had Pst Mike on saturday. and during ministry time, when i started to pray for a member, my heart was so full of love for her. i could feel the love of God for her so stongly! and how much He really wanted to touch and minister to her. i felt so much for her…

on sunday, fellowshipped with angeline malang. i could sense how much He has put into her and wanted to use her in a very mighty way…. How He is willing, if she is…

then jiayi and i were just talking over the phone. when she shared her feelings, i could sense God dopping in my heart how He was so proud of her; not of her achievements but for who she really is. i wanted so much to scream that fact into her face that: SHE IS BEAUTIFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE!

i was talking to a ex member on monday night and a supposedly 15mins visit at her house turns out to be a almost 2 1/2 hours of heart to heart talk.. the moment i stepped into her house, i was so ovewhelmed by love and compassion for her.. i just wanted to give her a tight hug and tell her God loves you. i think everyone in her cellgroup be shocked totally if they know the condition she lives under, yet she can still love and serve Him so fervently. and she said something, “without God, i think i would have committed suicide long time ago..” thinking back, im glad God gave me a chance to make a difference in her life by bringing her to Him.

then i was just smsing jiemin. it was a pretty random sms… but the love of God for her was so overwhelming, i actually started crying while typing the sms… i could sense so strongly the unconditional love He has for her. a love that expects nothing from her, but just for who she is.

and the whole week He has been putting wenhui on my mind. again, it was an unconditional, very very strong love for her.

the whole week it was just a burden and love for people.

now i fully understand; i really cannot give what i have never experience.

i believe i still do want to make a difference and touch lives.